Standing…
Looking to what is coming…
Shaking…
Asking myself if I really want it
Dreaming…
Do you really did that ?
Wandering…
What would you do when you find out?
Starring down…
My feets on the end of the road
I see it coming faster and faster
Would I do it ?
I remember what you said
I remember what you did
How can I ever forget THAT?
Never I guess
I came to you, like I promised
But you’ve waved me away
You said you were too busy to talk to me
So I run away
I run away to the place I am now
I am looking to my hands and see they’re bleeding
I feel the blood drawning down on my hands…
Just like my tears are rolling over my face
But I am thinking clear!!!
A man came to me and told me it’s dangerous to stand here
I looked him in his face and said I knew that
He looked to me and saw my hands
What is going on girl ? he asked
I want to tell him, but I know he won’t understand
No one would understand..
I have did everything they asked,
But it wasn’t enough
It’s never enough!
I came to my friend ,but he was too busy
I called up my best girlfriend, but she didn’t believed me
I asked the people they knew me best
But they didn’t knew me at all!
They though I wouldn’t go
They though I wouldn’t cut in my arms
They though I was joking..
But I never have…
I run on this place, furder … away from that man
That man who was yelling at me and said I must stop
Stop with running, stop with hiding…
But I can’t… he wouldn’t understand
I runned furder on this station…
I runned against a boy and I fall on the ground..
The boy says sorry and helped me up
‘’ have I did that? ‘’ he asked and fingered at my arms
‘’no you didn’t’’ I said and walked furder
‘’wait! I was one like you before… I still am’’
that were his words who kept me still
he showed his arms and I saw blood
now I see he is crying too…
‘’You wouldn’t understand’’ I said
‘’ you don’t understand it yourself’’ he said back
I looked in his face and see the same pain
I was running too, I wanted to jump… he said
Why don’t you ? why aren’t you going to jump?
I walked furder and he tries to keep on with me
Cause now I see there’s some one with the same pain
I am not alone…just like you, you are not alone!
You don’t understand… I am going to jump
It doesn’t matter me if you are there with me…
It doesn’t matter if I was alone…
I spoke these words and know that they weren’t true
You are lying, come, give me an change
If you go, we go together…. He said
I looked to him and smiled…
He really means it ! he really cares!
I throw myself in his arms and lay my head on this shoulders
‘We are one, one we are! Forever’ he said
Yes, forever..how long that may be….
And then he kissed me… My love…My dream…
He is the one who rescued me…
He is the one who suffers the same pain
Altough it’s different
But it doesn’t matter anymore…
I know my friends, my true friends…
I know my world, I know my pain
And now…now I really understand it…
I really do.