I`m an addict.
Thats what people want me to say.
To give up my innocence,
that I`ve already had thrown away.
Scares of emptyness in my head.
Don`t bother to help me I`m already dead.
I sit in a room,
where curtens are closed,
where no light has ever shown.
I damn the day that I started with this life.
This life I live is just another lie.
My life only exists when I have my stuff.
Then I can even take on the world and act really tough.
But when I`m not hooked up on crack,XTC or speed.
I feel like I`m going to die again cuz I`m back in reality.
And reality is bad for me.
Because I want to be blind,not able to see,
the thing that makes the reality.
I run from it.
I hide for it.
Cuz I can`t face the reality here.
In this sick fucked up country I live.
Politics,corruption,discrimination,
makes me sick.
That`s why I hide.
Put on my descuise.
Hide my true colors.
Don`t care about muthafucking money,Euro or dollars.
Just leave me allone and let me be.
People fear me like I`m some public enemy.
Why the hell,they should be scared of me?
It`s me that fears their reality.
But nobody can understand how I feel.
Just leave me allone,nobody cares for me.
I don`t even ask for your respect,I don`t ask for much do I?
But I respect myself and still have my pride.
That`s something I`ll never loose,
even if I die.
This is what I choose.
I`m an addict that`s the name people use.
But I don`t care,
I don`t let it get to me.
As long as I`m blind and can`t see,
this worlds dark reality.