Confusion,
betrayal,
stabbing in the back,
mistake turned out to be fatal.

Fatal to my heart,
scattered on the floor,
it happened again,
again I bumped my face up the door.

I don’t know what to do,
what to feel,
damn it she made me doubt,
what is false and what is real.

I can’t separate my own dream from reality,
I’m trapped within a non existing place,
where I get hurt every time,
I close my eyes and see her face.

Her smile,
her laugh,
so damn sweet,
and now again it’s rough.

MY feelings,
a mess within,
failing actions,
her soft skin.

Feelings that are to be forgotten,
feelings that need to go away,
damn this situation,
don’t let me feel this every day.

The time that she and I are together,
is no way near,
I don’t think she’ll become mine,
just as I fear.

I want to scream but I can’t,
I want to cry but don’t allow it,
I want to crush on the floor but fail to fall,
I’m sitting down feeling shit.

Make redemption come soon,
let me see clearer under the moon,
make the darkness be clear to me,
don’t let me trapped let me be free.

Feelings are fucking useless,
useless to their very bone,
it makes one weak,
makes me talk with a shivering tone.

Release this damnation,
free my soul,
expel this daemon,
make me become whole.

I’ve been fooled by her beautiful eyes,
eyes in which I can swim all day,
but they deceived me,
they made it rain and let my feelings decay.

I remain silent,
while screaming within,
I’ll make no sound,
while shouting beneath my skin.

It burns, it cuts,
let my feelings fade,
it stabs, it shaves,
my feelings rot in the shade.