Time after time
I come across
an obstacle to love
whichever type
I'm dealing with
from mind
from heart
from lust
each every time
another life
enters into my own
I lose a part of me
how should this be?
Love or lust
or in between
varieties of sorts
all should enhance
and add to me
as much as I to them
yet it is not so
each every time
I arrive complete
but leave
no longer whole
Do I give more
than what I take
this would explain
the loss
but no,
as for of late
I have held back
all my love
Holding on to all of me
I thought
would cease the pain
bewildering to me, alas
the problem stays the same
How could it be
that all my strength
my self-worth and respect
do not remain in place
when I am loved
but in return
I give not one thing back?
In either case
I must conclude
it was not meant to be
that in my life
another dwells
or I lose life as me
A lonely fate
from this it seems
I see no other way
the choice is tough
to be alone
or not be me?